Wrestling With Grace: Breaking Down Our Wrestle With God
Religion & Spirituality
About
Have you ever felt like you were doing everything right—following the rules, checking all the boxes—yet somehow, you still felt… lost? Disconnected? Wondering if God was even listening? Or maybe you’ve spent years chasing success, believing that once you reached the top, you’d finally feel whole… only to realize the emptiness never really left. We’ve been there. And we know we’re not alone. Welcome to The Wrestle —a podcast about the struggle, the doubts, and the turning points that bring us closer to God. We’re here to have real conversations about faith—the kind that go beyond surface-level answers. We’ll talk about what’s truly available to us as followers of Christ… and how to overcome the very things that keep us from Him. Because The Wrestle isn’t a sign that you’re failing—it’s an invitation. An invitation to dig deeper, to ask the hard questions, and to find the peace and purpose that only God can give. So if you’ve ever felt like you’re wrestling with your faith… you’re in the right place. Join us as we break down The Wrestle —together.
Episodes
- What Is Matchless Power?
Tatiana, Justin, and Krisha explore the concept of "matchless power" as described in Mosiah 4:6. They share personal experiences and discuss the roles of the Atonement, grace, priesthood power, and the Holy Ghost in understanding and exper…
- Those Who Wrestle: Gracie's Story
Gracie Riley discusses her missionary experience, sharing how she overcame initial disappointment with her assignment to North Dakota. She found joy and purpose by focusing on her work, relying on the atonement, and learning Spanish.
- Treating Things Lightly
Tatiana and Justin discuss the Atonement of Jesus Christ, vanity, and unbelief, emphasizing the importance of understanding God's character and recognizing the Atonement as a gift. They highlight the dangers of self-reliance and the need t…
- Vanity And Unbelief
Tatiana and Justin discuss the concepts of vanity and unbelief and the importance of not treating sacred things lightly. They reference Ezra Taft Benson's 1986 talk on D&C 84:54-55 and encourage reflection on spiritual practices.
- Insight On The Garment With Mark A. Mathews
Mark A. Mathews joins Tatiana to discuss the symbolism of the temple garment, linking it to the Atonement of Jesus Christ and the initiatory ordinance. The discussion emphasizes the importance of the garment in maintaining a relationship w…
- Relying Wholly
Tatiana and Justin discuss the importance of relying wholly on Christ's merits for salvation, sharing personal experiences and analogies to highlight the need for humility and actively seeking Christ's help in one's spiritual journey.
- The Merits Of Him Who Is Mighty To Save
Tatiana and Justin discuss time management and Tatiana's struggles with ADHD. They explore how revisiting Colleen Harrison's book, "He Did Deliver Me from Bondage," helps Tatiana access the Atonement of Jesus Christ for overcoming personal…
- Those Who Wrestle: Cody's Story
Cody Smith shares his faith journey, beginning with missionary service, facing challenges, and ultimately gaining a deeper understanding of atonement and God's love. He discusses the transformative power of wrestling with grace and his tes…
- Those Who Wrestle: Hannah's Story
Hannah Wheelwright shares her experiences parenting medically complex children, including her first child's spina bifida and a second child with Down Syndrome and a heart defect. She discusses her struggles and how she found support and pe…
- Learning Joy From Those Who Stay
Tatiana and Justin discuss learning joy from ancestors who stayed faithful. They share personal stories of their grandparents and reflect on the importance of recognizing God's presence in all circumstances.
- Moving From Shame
Tatiana, Justin, and Krisha discuss the difference between shame and guilt, using Peter's story from the New Testament as an example. They highlight insights from Brene Brown and Elder Holland on how shame isolates and attacks identity, wh…
- Failure Doesn't Disqualify You
Tatiana, Justin, and Krisha discuss Peter's denial of Christ, examining guilt, shame, and their distinction. They explore how Peter's failure ultimately led to his calling, and share a story of overcoming struggles through faith and repent…
- What Wrestling Really Looks Like
Tatiana and Justin discuss the importance of engaging with God through questions and doubts. They explore scriptural figures like Enoch, Moses, and Moroni who wrestled with God and overcame inadequacies through faith, leading to deeper spi…
- Do You Feel The Music?
Tatiana and Justin discuss the importance of emotional connection in spiritual practices, referencing Wilford W. Andersen's talk on the "music of the gospel." They explore signs of losing spiritual connection and offer advice on re-engagin…
- Welcome To Wrestling With Grace
Tatiana rebrands her podcast to "Wrestling With Grace," focusing on helping individuals combat spiritual exhaustion and understand the enabling power of grace. She discusses grace as a continuous process, referencing scriptures and teachin…
- The Freedom Of Honest Inventory
Tatiana, Justin, and Krisha discuss honest self-inventory and repentance for spiritual growth. They explore how embracing discomfort and a compassionate view of repentance can lead to healing and freedom.
- What To Do When God Doesn't Show Up The Way You Expect Him To
Tatiana, Justin, and Krisha discuss the experience of feeling disconnected from God despite religious practices. They explore how disappointment often stems from unmet expectations and the importance of expressing raw emotions to God, even…
- Resolutions That Stick: Coupling With Christ
Tatiana and Justin discuss faith, lasting change, and coupling with Christ. They emphasize continuous prayer and relying on Christ for true transformation, encouraging listeners to couple their goals with divine guidance.
- Entering His Rest: Repentance As Awareness
Tatiana and Justin discuss repentance, highlighting it as a path to rest and peace, not punishment. They emphasize dependence on Christ, referencing scriptures from John 15 and Alma 32, and address common misconceptions about repentance an…
- Rest For The Weary Heart: Claiming Mercy Now
Tatiana, Justin, and Krisha discuss holiday season stress, gratitude, and turning to Christ for immediate mercy and rest. They highlight the transformative power of experiencing Jesus, referencing Alma and his companions.
- You’re Not Meant To Do Life Alone
Tatiana, Justin, and Krisha discuss the concept of faith and the atonement of Jesus Christ, emphasizing that true faith involves trusting in God's help and not trying to do life alone. They highlight the importance of repentance as a path…
- Those Who Wrestle: Bryce's Story
Bryce Prescott shares his spiritual journey, discussing his upbringing in the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints, his mission in Brazil, and subsequent life changes. He emphasizes the importance of personal relationship with God a…
- Yielding Vs. Avoiding
Tatiana and Justin discuss the sweetness of God's love, comparing it to cherished holiday traditions. They highlight the anticipation and preparation for Christ's birth and the importance of yielding to God's invitations.
- Boundaries: Love Vs. Resentment
Tatiana and Justin discuss the importance of setting boundaries, especially during the holiday season, to maintain love and respect for others. They highlight boundaries as essential for personal spiritual peace and growth, citing scriptur…
- 30-Day Book Of Mormon Challenge With Riley Barker
Tatiana and Riley Barker discuss their 30-day Book of Mormon challenge, sharing the challenges of condensing their reading and the blessings experienced through consistent daily reading. They also reflect on the parallel between their read…
- God's Word Vs. Proof
Tatiana and Justin discuss the challenges of faith, focusing on trusting God's word over seeking proof and the importance of understanding God's character through scripture. They emphasize seeking divine guidance for a fulfilling relations…
- Joy Vs. Circumstances
Tatiana and Justin discuss the theme of joy, emphasizing that it is found through experiencing Jesus. They reflect on how recent interviews and personal experiences highlight the importance of turning to Christ for peace and joy, especiall…
- Those Who Wrestle: Suzanne’s Story
Suzanne Rentmiester joins Tatiana to share her personal journey of faith and healing. She discusses overcoming generational trauma and negative self-talk through the ARP program and daily scripture study, learning to reconcile with others…
- Those Who Wrestle: Bekah’s Story
Bekah Sien discusses her journey through a difficult marriage and the impact of the 12-step program. She shares her initial resistance to seeking help and how she found solace and strength through the program, emphasizing the importance of…
- Desires Vs. Agency
This episode explores the biblical story of Alma and Amulek, emphasizing listening to God's calls and aligning personal desires with divine guidance. The discussion touches on the struggle between comfort and spiritual growth, illustrated…
- Boldly Before The Throne
Tatiana and Justin discuss the wrestle with faith, overcoming personal obstacles, and the importance of yielding to Christ's sanctification. They reference scriptures from First and Second Nephi and a quote from President Nelson.
- From Belief To Trust
Tatiana, Justin, and Krisha discuss perfectionism and the importance of admitting weaknesses. They also explore the transforming power of grace and the value of trusting in God, referencing Colleen Harrison's 'Deliver Me from Bondage'.
- Give All Sins To Know Him
Tatiana and Justin discuss human weaknesses, emphasizing the importance of acknowledging them and sharing them with trusted individuals for spiritual growth. They reference Colleen Harrison's book and scriptural texts to illustrate overcom…
- Traditions Of The Fathers
Tatiana and Justin discuss the concept of "Woe unto the uncircumcised of heart" from Colleen Harris's book, focusing on behaviors inherited from past generations. They highlight the importance of self-awareness and grace in understanding a…
- Handwriting Is God's Speed
Tatiana is joined by Justin and Krisha to discuss faith, repentance, and the principles of "He To Deliver Me From Bondage," focusing on the importance of writing by hand in a 12-step program. They share personal experiences and highlight t…
- Those Who Wrestle: Lowell's Story
Lowell Beck shares his personal faith journey, discussing how he reconciled his father's suffering and death with his beliefs. He emphasizes the importance of holding onto faith and trusting in God's plan, finding solace in scriptures and…
- Start The Process
Tatiana, Justin, and Krisha discuss faith, self-reflection, and emotional maturity. They explore step four of the 12-step process, focusing on honest inventory and the role of repentance for personal growth.
- Trusting The Heart Surgeon
Tatiana, Justin, and Krisha explore principles of King Benjamin's promise, emphasizing friendship with Christ and seeking atonement. They discuss step four of the process, which involves making a fearless written inventory of one's past to…
- The Promises, Part 2
Tatiana and Justin discuss divine promises as part of the struggle to grow in faith, exploring the concept of wrestling with faith and gospel promises. They also highlight the need for parents to teach and discipline children with love and…
- The Promises, Part 1
Tatiana and Justin explore the promises of living the gospel, focusing on internal changes that come from seeking Christ. They discuss topics such as rejoicing, remission of sins, and the importance of gratitude and praise in one's relatio…
- Comprehension Vs. Ignorance
Tatiana, Justin, and Krisha discuss faith, doubt, and the importance of authentic conversations about God. They explore King Benjamin's sermon, focusing on believing in Christ's wisdom and the necessity of repentance, personal revelation,…
- Consistency Vs. Constancy
Tatiana, Justin, and Krisha discuss remembering one's nothingness and God's goodness, referencing scriptures and personal experiences. They highlight daily prayer, repentance, and the sacrament, and differentiate between consistency and co…
- Those Who Wrestle: Tiffany's Story
Tiffany Mansfeld shares her personal story of spiritual wrestling, discussing her journey through questioning her faith, leaving the church, and her eventual rebaptism. She highlights the importance of seeking spiritual experiences and the…
- Benjamin's Promises, Part 3
Tatiana and Justin finalize their discussion on Benjamin's promises, focusing on trusting Jesus Christ and applying His atonement. They discuss recognizing Christ, releasing guilt, and seeking His daily presence for self-mastery and a deep…
- Benjamin's Promises, Part 2
Tatiana and Justin continue discussing Benjamin's promises, focusing on spiritual dyslexia and King Benjamin's sermon. They use personal stories to illustrate the importance of faith in Jesus Christ and a personal relationship with Him for…
- Benjamin's Promises, Part 1
Tatiana and Justin discuss spiritual dyslexia and the importance of seeking Christ first, referencing Colleen Harrison's work and King Benjamin's teachings in the Book of Mormon. They emphasize that repentance leads to joy and peace, and G…
- Assumptions Vs. Truth
Tatiana, Justin, and Krisha discuss their experiences at a priesthood camp, focusing on spiritual growth and the character of Christ. They share personal stories and highlight the importance of recognizing God's presence in everyday life.
- Redemption Vs. Despair, Part 2
Tatiana, Justin, and Krisha continue their discussion on redemption versus despair, sharing personal experiences and emphasizing the importance of hope, gratitude, and turning to God. The conversation also covers dealing with bottled-up em…
- Redemption Vs. Despair, Part 1
Tatiana, Justin, and Krisha discuss redemption versus despair, drawing on personal experiences like postpartum depression and workplace stress. They emphasize that despair arises from inaction on hope and faith, urging listeners to pursue…
- Yours Vs. Mine
Tatiana and Justin discuss the concept of Jesus as a personal Savior and how struggles can lead to a deeper connection with faith. They share personal experiences, including spiritual awakening through disordered eating and divine interven…